HI i read your letter..u know we are riding in the same boat my dear...my dad also died last september 17 a mnth b4 ur dad"s death...my dad also die in a lung cancer..it was so horrible seeing my dad shouting for pain and he cant sleep without giving injection.my father died but i was not in his side in his last breath...my sister
calls me then i go to the hospital and there i found my dad wth oxygen but no heartbeat and pulse..i hug him coz his eyes are still open..i know hes waiting for me when i arrived it was suddenly closed little by little..until now all the event in that date ..the funeral, the burial, and in the hospital holding him dead was still fresh in my mind...now its been 1 mnth and a half but still tears are flowing in our eyes..i dont know how to forget about his death and we misses him so much esp.xmas is near..i dont know if i can send smile to my kids this season knowing that deep inside my heart i miss my dad...hope we can be friends...i hate lung cancer..i wish cigarettes will vanish in earth...keep in touch!!!
Darlene, I'm so sorry for the loss of your Dad.....my dad was also 81 when he passed away last February. Like your Dad, it was very sudden and not really expected ( looking back, I do see signs that he was getting close to that point of letting go......he was SO active all his life, and I know he was getting pretty frustrated that his body was not cooperating anymore!) My mom and nephew found him in the driveway in his van- he had put the key in the ignition but had not turned it yet, it must have been very quick which I am thankful for, for his sake. I still have bad days, but am coming to terms with his absence. He was always the one to lead our family on one great adventure after another over the years.....I am trying to look at his passing as if he has gone on ahead to prepare us for another place, as he did so many other times. I really miss him, as i know you miss your dad too. I look forward to the day when we will meet again, and I get great joy in imagining how wonderful it must have been for him to be greeted by his own parents and many siblings after not seeing them for so long. take care, jen