I am resigned to the fact that there won't be many new developments about the point at which I'm living life now. Learning the new way to live is where I make my biggest strides. It's a dreadful thought that right as I am beginning my life journey and trying to make it in the world, and discovering what there is to live for along the way, one of the biggest reasons for all of that is lost. When I am suppose to have 'everything to live for', 'your whole life ahead of you', the person who was…

Marcus, the youngest sibling of three decided to take his life in the early morning hours, 9 months and 1 day ago. Being apart from him he did it in my old room, the only one in the house. Memories within those walls are both haunting and comforting since that's the only place we've ever lived. One memory is of us sitting on my computer, and being artists I would show him techniques I learned using the basic paint program to create graphic visuals. I once showed him a finished portrait of…