I just wanted you to know that I understand that shutting down emotionally. It's too big... it's too overwhelming. I have spent months just watching NCIS reruns and doing jigsaw puzzles... all to numb out. I'm just starting to let the emotions fully come up and it's so tiring and overwhelming. It makes me feel crazy sometimes...like I want to either scream or go sit in a corner with a blanket over my head.
But there is hope... I truly believe I will heal the more I experience those feelings. It's OK that it has taken you this long. It just takes a long time.
Thank you lee for your kinds words. My God give you peace in your hart for the lost of your bother. I just pray that I could make since of all that is happening I the pass weeks. I still don’t understand that she is gone. I feel that at any moment she is going to call me on the phone like she aways did every morning. My hart is so broken all I can do is cry.