I haven't been on here for awhile. It's been 5 years and almost 4 months since my son Jeremy died. I miss him so much, not a day go by that I don't think about him. It doesn't get any easier, the time goes faster! I keep going back and forth with my moods, sometimes I'm ok other's not. I'm glad that the holidays are over they are the worst thing to go through. My Dad passed away 16 months after my son, I'm dealing with that, it was so fast, I know that both of them are together again, that makes me feel a little better I guess. I just keep wondering what he'd be doing and where he would be? That I'll never know! Lost future! ????