Hi Shirley - so sorry for the delay.  I do understand your pain to a degree;

I am much older but the death of a love one is a very hard and dreadful experience.  I took care of my both of my parents; eventhough my Dad died in 2007 and my Mom just died in 2014/September - the pain is so hard to deal with - however, time does not make you forget them but time soften the emotional stress and tears.  You never stop missing them.  I love all of the beautiful memories I have of my parents.  When I hear a certain sound - it brings back so many memories.  I do regret it took so long for me to respond; been a while since I had a friend request.