hi Kimberly.. i too lost my mum at 13yrs and and my dad 2 years ago.. what area u doing for christmas they ask and then tell me what they are doing.. well people always talk about parents. and what do u do without them . i spent most of my life wishing i had my mum and now my dad has gone i realise how much he filled my life.  i too feel alone .. yep we are never prepared.. i know this christmas is hard and its 2 years. please know u are not alone.... peace to u at this time x