Now I need to get my Van fix, I have drove this van to death, needs to be fix!
My husband was my repair man, but he died after OUR ONLY DAUGHTER at the age of 35 years was found in a drug overdose in a motel leaving behind 3 sons that I had already raised!! Adopted a sister-in -law"s daughter in 1976, when she was 22 years she got a brain tumor in 1998 , also had 3 sons! Sept 1st 2002 My only daughter was found in a drug overdose, she now lives in a nursing home out of state!!
She had 3 sons, In Nov 4th 2002 had a housefire and 2 of the grandson's died in this Fire!!
The adopted Daughter went blind and deaf on her left side of her head from the brain tumor,
My other daughter is ln a nursing home since 2002 living on a feeding tube at now 43 yrs old
In Aug 2003 husband dies from a stroke and now I'am on my own!! living alone with no job and no money!!!
What money I had I spend it living without a job. I can't seem to get my mine right to get a job!!!
NOW WHAT DO YOU DO ABOUT ALL OF THIS!!!
Where do I go from here!!!
The doctors have even threw me out of their office saying they can't help me, Yes that's right, now when a doctor can't help you, where do you go from there!!! I don't want to go to a doctor that hasn't been in my shoes, they don't know how I feel, all they do is watch their watch for their next patient to come in!!
Well I will talk later
Yes! I fell your pain as we all do that is on this site!!! This is the worse site to be on, we all are going thru the same thing, I have been fighting for now 8 years! YES 8 years, It feel like yesterday! I also feel upset when I see people enjoying their life, like they haven's had nothing in their life YET to have them in your shoes!!!
I hope they never have to be where we are in our life, I have never been back to life for 8 church after what has happen!
I'am not ready for church, may never be ready. Do I blame God, I don't know what is right anymore.
I just drive around now running my gas out of my car , go window shopping, drive more gas out of this car and fill it up again , I can't stay at home anymore.
It's NUTS how the mine works after what we have been thru!! Does it get better, people says it does, but I have been fighting this for 8 YEARS and it's no BETTER in my life!!
Hi Lashony I read your post and how sad you are and jealous of other families. I know when I look at people I see my son. and on tv i see his face in faces of other people. why does this happen to us and to our children. we will never know. carrie L
Hi Lashonya. I am so sorry for our losses. How are you coping. I wonder why no one knew your son had pneumonia? that is so weird and he was so young. we don't have insurance I wonder what is going to happen to us.? Carrie L
Hi Lashonya I am so sorry about your son. How old was he. My precious son was almost 24 and it is horrible. why does this happen because it is life. I never warned him about death. I thought yep maybe they could die snowboarding or in a car.... but never really gave it much thought then his dad gave me that call and that rings in my head. the thoughts keep going over and over again. I think it is the horror of their youth. I mean he was just beginning his journey. Luckily he had been to california and sat in the redwood trees. They are so energetic... but sad also. I never thought it would happen He had an invincible personality. I am sure he never thought it would happen either. Carrie L
There is no question that I haven't asked God in regards to my son dying at such a young age. Everyone tells he that It is God's plan and I believe it was but I am still selfish, I want my son for myself.....I don't know HOW to continue moving forward without him and I met so many people who have lost children too but I haven't met any like me who have lost their only child (not that it matters more or less) but I Love him so much and I know my love for him should penetrate his soul even beyond death. My son was an Angel on Earth so there is no doubt that he is an Angel in Heaven. I love you "Pumpkin Head" and I promise that one day we will be together.